9月２４日至９月３０日

上个星期五，我感到非常的内疚，我很对不起４Ｄ班的学生。我教他们补习BM,但我不会教，首先我摆在我本身就害怕学生及马来文这一科！我很怕语文课，华文例外！
　　　这般有大约６位超皮的学生，都是男的，他们的精力比ｅｎｅｒｇｉｓｅｒ电池还强！我真得很佩服他们！不知是因为我不够凶，　还是我没拿藤条去，罚他们出去站，他们竟然还可以向全班比笑脸，而弄得全班笑场！我为了应付他们，就教得超慢！但那一班有三位超极爱学习的同学，他们的好学及不明白眼神很令我内疚，我竟然为了６位皮学生而放弃了全班！　所以这个星期我做了超级准备，成绩是还好！但我忘了带我的藤鞭，有一点失策！只好向隔壁老师借藤鞭，那老师的忠言是：“要打就要痛，不然就不打！”　
　　　还有有一位老师很好心的问我，他的班有欺负我吗？我说还好，没有！
我问他：＂为何你会这么问？＂　
他说：“因为有一位老师向我投诉你上课的时候，你的班很吵！“　
我问：“班吵，就是学生欺负老师吗？“
他说：“当然，因为你control控制不了那一班的学生!"
顿时，我才更恍然大悟，之前有很多人告诉我，fail to control class, Ｉ　ｊｕｓｔ　ｓａｙ　ｙｅｓ，　ｉ　ｋｎｏｗ．．　Ｉ　ｎｅｖｅｒ　think or admit i fail to control class. I always think : i afraid I cannot control the class.
After few days, i know that i fail to control the class and admit to it. I will improve myself in this..
It is hard to do so.. but i will try.. No pain no gain... :)

On Mooncake Festival, I send a sms to my teacher in Perlis to greet him Happy Mooncake Festival and inform him that i change my handphone number from 017-5110873 to 016-7110873. I sub my brother's line. My teacher told me that there has Guru Pemulihan. Perlis needs 3 teachers and Kedah needs 8-9 teachers. He insists that this is a golden chance if I want to become a teacher. The qualification is have University Certification.
Quickly, I call my cousin in Perlis to help me to take the form from Education Department, Jabatan Pelajaran Perlis. However, she told me that she will only take the form tomorrow or the day after tomorrow. I feel worry because 30 September is the last day for Kedah but for Perlis is 8October. I wish to apply for both state to increase my chance. So at 4.10pm I called my friend in Jitra. She is in practical for music teacher in primary school. She told me that she is going to Jabatan Pelajaran Kedah now. Bingo. I am so happy and asked her to help me to take the form and post it to me.
At 4.45pm, she called me and told me that she get the form. She fear post is too slow, so she scan the form and email to me. I am so glad. Thanks alot to her, or i don't think I have chance to apply for Kedah Guru Pemulihan. Quickly, I went to Taman U to online and printed it out. Taman U has a lot of photocopy shops, but they has no online service. I found the cyber cafe for 20 minutes after asking one photocopy shop owner. Thank you every one..I hope that i really can get the post, God bless me.. I hope.. I wish.. I keep my finger cross.. Please...... Hum mali mali hum. I will have my lucky star beside me.. I believe...